change of plans...

this was previously posted October 16th, 2009 on a different blog that i no longer have access to, and re-posted here.


so about that last post....Zachary quit his job 3 days later after 3 days of pleading from me. it was HORRID! i won't go into details, but if you care to know just call and ask zachary how many lawns he mowed in just 2 days, i would guess to say that it is more than 10 people combined have mowed in a year.

things since then have taken an up turn. still no job, but God i believe is changing both of our hearts through this process. i'm learning not to worry, and zachary is learning to search for God's plan. we have gotten more involved in our church also and we are loving it! you can check out their website and get more of a glimpse into our lives. www.thecommunityatlakeridge.com. we love our church family and have really found a home there. one of the pluses about zachary not having a job is that he also gets to serve out at the church property on wednesday's just fixing thing and being their handyman.

my main reason for posting today though is for a prayer request. i have been literally aching lately because i know that something big is in store for us and that God is asking us to take a risk. i've been searching and checking out a ton of books from the library and just praying to figure out what it is. and i believe that while laying awake last night, after making the mistake of drinking coffee 30 minutes before i went to bed, God revealed some of that vision to me, and i know this because zachary was actually excited about one of my off the wall dreams this time! i'm not going to say just what quite yet, i dont' want to sound crazy to anyone other than my husband, but just pray that zachary and i keep searching for the Lord, and that he keeps revealing his plan for our lives.

who doesn't like a bobble head....

This was posted on August 14th, 2009 and posted on a different blog that i don't have access to so i re-posted it here for consistency's sake...


my new goal in life is to be more balanced. not a little bit more balanced, but BALANCED. i am so terribly bad at it. i am starting to see signs of being older and i have realized that i have never been good at taking care of myself. i am way too serious about everything and i tend to forget about my own needs. i realize that i unfortunately don't laugh enough. even though i am happy, love my life, and have a pretty funny husband, i am still always pushing to be better and tend to not take time to just relax and laugh. i know that in the end this kind of behavior will break me, and so i have made it an intention to laugh more everyday.

this week i laughed harder than i have in a long time. zachary and I were visiting with our best buds the pickrel's and my new God son david allen on tuesday. catherine was holding David on her chest and we were all laughing at something and david's head would not stop bouncing around. he looked just like a bobble head, which in turn made us laugh even more. it made me feel like we were a bunch of kids just playing with a baby. laughing made me feel so young.

it was a great first memory to have with david on his first day in this world, and i hope that it is a precursor of a life filled with laughter. i love you little david, and i will pray this for you always.

laughing is not just for kids though. i see that it is what is lacking most in adults.

He will fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy. Job 8:21

Well here we go...

This was previously written on Tuesday, March 17th 2009 on a different blog that I can no longer access and posted again today...

we are currently job searching and just praying for the Lord's guidance. we are praying that we do the right thing; however, sometimes we find it hard to know what the "right" thing is. i have always believed that if you truly want to serve the Lord and you are looking for his presence in your life, ultimately you will end up in the right place...so here's to hoping my philosophy is right. we both sometimes feel that God is going to ask us to do something BIG someday, and we both hope that we will have the courage and the skills to answer the call, or even hear it for that matter.

for all of our friends and family in tough spots right now we pray that you too can find the peace to hear the Lord, and the courage to do what the Lord asks.

"I want to keep my soul fertile for the changes, so things keep getting born in me, so things keep dying when it is time for things to die. I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently." Donald Miller-Through Painted Deserts