call HIM

Do you ever get the overwhelming feeling that life isn't the way you had planned for it to be.

I'm there.

But the Lord is faithful to who He called and named you.

He reminded me this week that I am courageous and capable. So much of my thoughts lately have been driven by fear and the feelings of insufficiency, but those are lies not worth listening to.

I am courageous and capable.

Not because I'm acting like it, but because that is who God says I am.

"On the day I called, you answered me; my strength of soul you increased." Psalm 138:3

I've never felt the Lord like I have lately. In moments of defeat I have called out and He has answered with love, strength, and the push to move forward. I'm so grateful I have learned the lesson to call on Him. It is in my weakness I have finally seen His strength.

Call Him. No one else.


I'm a Pusher

Today I was called a pusher. I’m sure others have been thinking it ever since Zachary and I started to sell Advocare, but this man was just brave enough to say it out loud. The funny thing is he doesn’t even have a day to day relationship with me, nor did I try to sell him anything. I simply said I was delivering some spark to a friend.  I’m not offended, because I know the truth, but I do want to address the thought.

You see up until about 2 years ago I probably would have thought the same thing. (I’m not brave enough to speak that out loud to someone though)  Maybe you couldn’t tell from the outside that I was dying, but I was a miserable person. I had spent my college years and the short years after college chasing what I thought I wanted for myself, and what other people around me defined as success. I had landed myself close to my dream job, but it was anything but a dream. It was everything I thought I would love, but I cried every Sunday because I knew what Monday was about to bring. When I found out I was pregnant, after much prayer, I knew that God was telling me to lay down my pride, make some sacrifices, and quit.  

We could not afford for me to quit, but we trusted that God was asking me to and would provide for our family. The 2 years since that decision have not been easy. But for the first time since high school I can say that I seek the Lord when I make decisions, I listen and wait for His answers before I move, and when He asks me to do something, I do it.  Has it been easy? Absolutely not!! But for the first time in my life I actually depend on the Lord, for everything. We are in a place often that if He doesn’t come through for us, we are sunk. He always comes through!

So when Advocare came into our lives God had humbled me enough, and opened my heart up for a change. I had been listening to His truth instead of the Devil’s lie. I had heard him tell me that I was worth it, that good things can happen in my life too, and that I was meant to change people’s lives just as he had told me so long ago. I started believing again that he had predestined many lives in my path that He would use me to change, but I had to say yes. It was clear that Advocare was the boat he sent my way, and I needed to start rowing it toward Him. Is it something I would have thought I would ever do? Is it something I ever wanted to do? No. I didn’t get a Master’s degree in Educational Leadership to push vitamins.

But here is the deal.

I don’t push vitamins.
I push hope.
I look for people who want a change. Whether it be in their weight, their health, their energy, their finances, or my favorite ALL OF THE ABOVE. And then I help them.

Too many people judge. They sit at home wishing things were different and making fun of those people that are out trying to make things different. I know because I was one of those people. I’m not anymore. I finally don’t care what others think of me, other than the God that I serve, and I know that He has called me to help.

Now, don’t get all upset and assume that I am saying if you don’t do direct sales that you aren’t listening to God. I’m not. It is definitely not for everyone, I understand that. However, I am asking you to not assume that you know the intentions of everyone in direct sales. I have met some amazing people who dreamed of what their life could be, and instead of just dreaming, they believed God when He said He planned good for them, and they went out and chased it for themselves and others.

I want to be a part of that. I want to surround myself with those types of people.


a doctor's advice

so i will admit, i love my doctor. i know it sounds weird. i have always hated going to the doctor, but this guy is so intriguing to me. he is extrememly awkward at times, and very blunt, but those are the things i love. he has a facebook page and today he posted an article, so of course, being that i love him, i read it.

and God delivers tokens of wisdom in the randomest ways

i have been having my quiet times with the Lord in the mornings very consistently lately and i've been having the conversation with Him over and over again how i just want to hear His voice and i feel as though i'm deaf to His word. i have felt like lately i am so bad at spending time with Him. i have kept at it though in hopes that i would hear the still small voice again. and i love how he delivers reassurance that He is there, He is listening, and i, no matter how tired, or defeated, or bad i feel that i'm doing, i need to keep pushing. below is a little of the article that spoke to me the most.

the writer is Gretchen Rubin
you can find the article on her blog
"the Happiness Project"

"Realize that anything worth doing is worth doing badly."
"Challenge and novelty are key elements of happiness. The brain is stimulated by surprise, and successfully dealing with an unexpected situation gives a powerful sense of satisfaction. People who do new things — learn a game, travel to unfamiliar places — are happier than people who stick to familiar activities that they already do well.
I often remind myself to “Enjoy the fun of failure”
and tackle some daunting goal."