a doctor's advice

http://tatertotsandteacups.blogspot.com/2010/12/happiness-project.html

so i will admit, i love my doctor. i know it sounds weird. i have always hated going to the doctor, but this guy is so intriguing to me. he is extrememly awkward at times, and very blunt, but those are the things i love. he has a facebook page and today he posted an article, so of course, being that i love him, i read it.

and God delivers tokens of wisdom in the randomest ways

i have been having my quiet times with the Lord in the mornings very consistently lately and i've been having the conversation with Him over and over again how i just want to hear His voice and i feel as though i'm deaf to His word. i have felt like lately i am so bad at spending time with Him. i have kept at it though in hopes that i would hear the still small voice again. and i love how he delivers reassurance that He is there, He is listening, and i, no matter how tired, or defeated, or bad i feel that i'm doing, i need to keep pushing. below is a little of the article that spoke to me the most.

the writer is Gretchen Rubin
you can find the article on her blog
"the Happiness Project"

"Realize that anything worth doing is worth doing badly."
"Challenge and novelty are key elements of happiness. The brain is stimulated by surprise, and successfully dealing with an unexpected situation gives a powerful sense of satisfaction. People who do new things — learn a game, travel to unfamiliar places — are happier than people who stick to familiar activities that they already do well.

I often remind myself to “Enjoy the fun of failure”

and tackle some daunting goal."

thanks friend.

so i know, i fell off the blog earth for a while. one thing you should know about me is that i have always been an all or nothing type girl. i either do something all the way, or i don't want to do it at all. so that is why blogging and i have a love hate relationship. i love doing it and it makes me feel better, but i often don't make it a priority when things get crazy in my life. so then when i didn't do it for a little while, i thought to myself, i'm not doing good at this, and then i just stopped. i know my reasoning is dumb.

i have been trying to break the all or nothing habit for years now. in some ways it serves me well, but in other situations it leads to my destruction. it causes me to give up on alot of things in my life that i should keep pursuing.

so why am i back?

a friend told me she missed my blog. i haven't always been the greatest of friends to this girl so i thought i owed her another shot, and a better one at that. thanks for the encouragement, and for letting me realize that even though i might not be the best at blogging, you enjoyed it. and that is what it should be for me, enjoying, not a competition to be my best.

dang you competitive self.

sorry for the delay

so i took some days off. last week was harder than i thought it would be. it was the second week of Zachary's new shift and us not seeing eachother. i thought the second week would be easier, it was harder. i made it through it though and we had a good weekend in tulsa with family. i took today off so we could spend some much needed alone time together before he went to work at 3pm.

even though this adjustment is hard, it has been really good for our relationship. we are much more intentional with our time, and it is forcing both of us to really learn how to love eachother better. we have been getting more creative and putting more effort into our relationship and it has really been fun.